I wanted to share a little life update. There is a lot more happening in our life beyond just meal planning, prepping, eating, and fitness. Though, to be honest, those do take up a lot of my heart and brain space. But I wanted to share a bit more of a picture of what’s happening here. It’s also a nice journal entry, if you want to give it a go, you can obviously substitute a lot of it (like, uh, I wish I could say “what I’m reading?” but lately it’s watching. Oops?) to fit whatever you wanting chronicle. I have pages of entries like this, and I adore looking back and seeing what was good, and what was tough, during different sages with my little family.
What Are We Watching?
Charlie and I are loving watching The Path. It’s a drama all about life in a cult, it blurs the lines between real and spiritual reality in a really ‘get under your skin’ way. It’s in it’s second season and has us fully hooked. Whenever we finish those episodes we watch Love Sick (a netflix original), as it’s way lighter. It’s a slightly crude comedy, that has just enough real life to it to make you identify with every character, but it’s perfectly balanced with being about a lifestyle (single, early 20’s) that we’re so far from that it feels like total fantasy. I’m also begrudgingly making my way through the Gilmore Girls whenever we have nothing new to watch. It’s my first time watching it, and I mainly just have a thing about sticking it out through the series, but… man, so far I only really like Paris.
I’ve really lucked into having some of the best mom friends around at school. It makes a world of difference since we spend SO much time there. We’ve now taken to not just laughing over the ridiculousness of motherhood (especially homeschool Mom Life), but also bringing in bars of fancy chocolate to all pass around and try. It made an already pretty great situation even better. Our family is starting to think about Summer and I’m getting so beyond excited for all our public school friends to be out of classes and ready to play again! Beach days, camping trips, family hikes, and maybe even a vacation?? eh, eh?
I’ve been thinking more and more about what I want to do. What I want to do with this space. And how I want to grow and use this platform to share more about the accessibility of self acceptance and work. I also can’t get my yoga teacher dreams out of my heart, even though the time feels impossible to set aside right now.
The balance of school and play and trying to make blogging a job (yeah…) is not my strong suit right now. I seem to ping pong between wanting to quit the internet, get a “real job”, and enroll the girls in school. Or believe so deeply, go all in and really chase the messages that I want to get out there, and implement some real life schedules to fit that in with schooling and full time SAHM stuff. All with the “oh crap, school?” portion of it too. Thankfully, the girls are inquisitive endlessly, and keep us on track with always learning, researching, and growing. But it would be lying to saying that I’m really nailing it right now. Oh, and? Ever will be in Kindergarten this fall….. what? nope.
How Am I Moving my Body?
Lately I have zero desire to do my regular workouts. But my brain goes into super spiral when I don’t move in some way. So lately I’ve been using resistance bands and pull-up assist bands ( <– affiliate links, I’ll be sharing more about them next week), to do mini-workouts all throughout the day. It’s working well, leaving me warm, and sore the next day, but it’s new and fun and short… so it doesn’t feel at all like a workout.
I also still am just loving, and in love with, yoga. I’ve been exploring how to use yoga for different healing. For digestion, anxiety, tiredness, empowerment, on and on. And it feels amazing to make a shift from yoga for a workout, into yoga for health. It’s a really good change. I have been really slowly going through Yoga Revolution on YouTube (through Yoga With Adriene) and it’s taking me months, but every practice is so thoughtful, and just what I need. I’ve been doing that mixed with my own flows, and that balance is just right.
What Am I Eating?
About a month ago my appetite was nearly nothing, and nothing sounded good. Lately my pendulum has swung back, and I am ravenous! It feels so good to eat! And to eat without all the fear and restrictions around it. I’m eating more intuitively, still keeping gluten out of our home, and being really aware of my how my body, heart, and head all feel. I’m also eating more chocolate, and that’s always a mood lifter. However, the other night was a big bummer in the dietary front. I had a major reaction to white potatoes (SO painfully bloated), that went away by morning, but was really uncomfortable. And I had a pretty big Come To Jesus about my coffee consumption. This past month it’s been a bit out of control, I can feel my heart racing, and my anxiety ramping up over things that typically don’t bother me. I also started having sleep issues again. So…. cutting back. And so sad. I love it so much! I also have been really not wanting meat… at all. I’ve never been a meal lover, but I have always ended up craving that protein. But lately I don’t at all. I’ve been eating more lentils, beans, and quinoa and feeling totally strong and satisfied with that.
My new blog page. . . It’s so exciting! Also, nerve-wracking and really messing with my brain, but I am beyond thrilled to finally have a site that really reflects my heart for these messages, my words, and what my goals are. But it’s also a really hard and bizarre experience to invest in your dreams. It feels counter to everything I’ve done for the past 7 years (give, give, give.) and really important. I can’t wait to share it all with you, but am also waking up in a cold-sweat nervous about it!
I am working on some really fun collaborations to unveil the new site, give you a total tour, and really celebrate this new chapter… it’s all getting pretty real!